Not only I...

Believing with eyes wide shut is often easier than learning to jump while looking down. At least then we can fake the truth and tell ourselves that the distance to the bottom isn’t quite as far as it really is. Who knows, maybe it won’t hurt as much as we think it will to jump head first into this thing, this unabandon, this definite foreseen giving of ourselves to something bigger than we could ever be if we remained alone, detached, and cold.

AND all along you didn’t realize that you had my attention, my affection, my heart. I don’t believe in this ridiculous idea of love, the impractical, the nonsensical. Those are feelings and they will fade, but something that will stay is this volition, this volition to love you at all costs, to fight until I am unable to stand, until my knees have unwillingly retreated to the ground, brought down by defeat, by something greater than this love could bear. But don’t you know that it can bear quite a bit? Don’t you know how big my heart is? Don’t you know it is seeking you out?

And not only my heart by itself... no, that isn’t enough. It will not be able to stand alone, but behind it rests a force greater than you or I. Bigger than anything I could ever hope to be. That love, that love, It is like iron, like honey- strong and sweet. Nothing will break it and nothing will ever refresh you like it will. Even though the pieces are frayed and untied. They represent so much more. They sit and they wait, because they know better than you or I that they will be tied back together and this time it will be stronger than it ever was, this love. And before it was like iron, steel- unbreakable. But nothing is unbreakable you say, and yes, you are right. But don’t you know that almost everything that has been broken can be mended back together again?

And though it still hurts me, and you, we can get past this, this wall, this hindrance. It will become like glass shattered, it will spread as tiny pieces, unable to hold back even water, cold, frost, dust. It will not be able to contain any season, even the least of them, just as He won’t retain our sin, even the least of them, if we just ask Him not to.